hurrmm.... life getting difficult now.. love life i mean, it is getting very difficult. it is hard to understand peoples feeling. I went to see the juniors dancing for their final exam (kebudayaan thingy) .. having fun and a good time until a guy came and she ran through him and asked whether he know her Ex and the guy answered her before she ask him. she was jumping and happy and i was just keep quiet (heart attack) .... i am so pissed off.. hey i'm a guy with feelings here..this is ain't karma, this is what people called a relationship without understanding. i know i'm not a good guy but at least i'm trying to be one here. we've been together for almost one year and she still don't get it that i hate him and i don't like it when she talk about that guy. she knew it but yet still keep on talking and asking people if they know her ex. i am giving everything, i am all out and i don't know what else to do to make her forget her ex. she still cant get over that guy. hey come on u're giving him chances, a big chances to let him to replace me. it's not i am scared to tell her this all, what i felt, but i just don't want to ruin everything and i still care about u and your feelings. but what do i get back ? Nothing but just a feeling that always get hurt. Hmmmmm..nothing better than loving yourself. Seems like this will always be like this until i get bored and leave u if that what u want. I don't know why, i get angry easily nowadays, like a guy having a period or maybe u cause this. I don't blame u, but who else to be blame ? hey i love you can u please understand that. it maybe look simple by just saying those words but, hey i have big meaning to explain to you about those simple words. hurmm...i'll just stop here, if not i won't stop writing until next year..
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